11-11-2018, 03:41 AM
I spent this weekend (my weekends are Thursday and Friday) cleaning up this ungodly rats nest that I had allowed to develop in the corner of the bedroom over the years. It was really bad, and took me a full day to clean out. I got rid of five large trash bags full of crap. It was mostly clothes that were warm out, don’t fit anymore, or were otherwise useless to me. Previously I have had some trouble getting rid of things. I realized a couple of things while I was doing that. First was that I was being systematic about the house cleaning without really thinking about it much. I had started in the closet of the master suite bathroom and had been working out from there. Our bedroom is in one corner of the top floor, without thinking about it too much, I am working my way down to the opposite corner of the basement. I’m going in small steps. Small task by small task, and it’s not going to take me too long to get a clean home. I am also almost compulsively keeping the things that I have already cleaned and organized clean and organized. I am for instance always putting my shoes on top of the plastic drawer things in my closet because that’s their place now.
I AM sick of living in a mess, but I think that what I’m doing here is really practicing organization, work ethic and what not to apply when I start going for larger goals next year.
I talked to my best friend this evening, and he told me that I sounded a lot happier, more positive, and less stressed in the last month. I haven’t really noticed that I sound any different, but it’s good to have the validation.
I still don’t know if I feel any difference between two and three. I think there’s something, but it’s really hard to put my finger on. Three feels more relaxed is the best way i can put it.
There have been a few incidents of negative thinking patterns from the past re surfacing, but where they used to completely take over my mind, now they are at a much lower “volume”, much less frequent, and pass much faster.
I still don’t have a real concrete plan in place for my job search next year. I’m planning on just playing FYPJ in 5 G and letting it do it’s thing.
I AM sick of living in a mess, but I think that what I’m doing here is really practicing organization, work ethic and what not to apply when I start going for larger goals next year.
I talked to my best friend this evening, and he told me that I sounded a lot happier, more positive, and less stressed in the last month. I haven’t really noticed that I sound any different, but it’s good to have the validation.
I still don’t know if I feel any difference between two and three. I think there’s something, but it’s really hard to put my finger on. Three feels more relaxed is the best way i can put it.
There have been a few incidents of negative thinking patterns from the past re surfacing, but where they used to completely take over my mind, now they are at a much lower “volume”, much less frequent, and pass much faster.
I still don’t have a real concrete plan in place for my job search next year. I’m planning on just playing FYPJ in 5 G and letting it do it’s thing.