01-16-2019, 01:10 AM
(01-15-2019, 09:38 AM)Tigerismyspirit Wrote: I don't want to say that I'm allowing it. I can't explain properly maybe for lack of better terms.
Eh, don't know if its the same for you tiger but for me it feels like my conscious mind is fighting on a bias battlefield where it has a disadvantage. Granted, you could say that was always the case when you want something consciously that your subconscious is totally against. This feels different some how though. Like using weight loss as example, at least maybe most people might go to the gym a few times ,after new years, before they finally back slide and stop going.
This is like there isn't even any gas in the "tank" to even get started. Motivation and will power just totally gone. If the subconscious going "Scorched Earth" is it just making everything that could go wrong go wrong and manifesting any negativity, this is the total opposite in some ways. This is just making nothing happen at all or at least have zero motivation and will power to make "anything" (not just things in related to the goals of the program) happen. Like you are just permanently "Couch locked" (not that I have personally have experience with that phenomenon but sounds like a apt description). I hope I explained that correctly.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche