02-27-2024, 08:19 AM
Day 16,
There are tangible benefits to my day-to-day life:
* Not as many interceding beliefs preventing me from doing something that I want to do.
* Going out for my walks, and having a desire to do longer and longer walks.
* Looking at houses on the Realtor website and feeling really good about the idea of living in one of those houses.
* Feeling like the main character from Red Dead Redemption 2, who has the option to 'Greet' people passing by. I occasionally do it, and it's totally fine.
* Easy to feel a positive outlook about things.
* Sleep habits are locked in.
Some drawbacks:
* Still having a numbness towards my goals; lack of direct desire.
* A substantial drop in my cardio output; came down with some form of sickness in October, December, and early February. December was COVID. Each time, I did not fully recover my peak capacity on the rowing machine.
* Today, having the lingering feeling that I'm doing something wrong, imposing onto other people, just by going about my life. I know that it's irrational, but the feeling is here for now.
* Some ADHD loss of focus towards my many interests; I'll short-circuit and do 20 seconds of everything, sometimes. No longer tracking my goals at this point.
There are tangible benefits to my day-to-day life:
* Not as many interceding beliefs preventing me from doing something that I want to do.
* Going out for my walks, and having a desire to do longer and longer walks.
* Looking at houses on the Realtor website and feeling really good about the idea of living in one of those houses.
* Feeling like the main character from Red Dead Redemption 2, who has the option to 'Greet' people passing by. I occasionally do it, and it's totally fine.
* Easy to feel a positive outlook about things.
* Sleep habits are locked in.
Some drawbacks:
* Still having a numbness towards my goals; lack of direct desire.
* A substantial drop in my cardio output; came down with some form of sickness in October, December, and early February. December was COVID. Each time, I did not fully recover my peak capacity on the rowing machine.
* Today, having the lingering feeling that I'm doing something wrong, imposing onto other people, just by going about my life. I know that it's irrational, but the feeling is here for now.
* Some ADHD loss of focus towards my many interests; I'll short-circuit and do 20 seconds of everything, sometimes. No longer tracking my goals at this point.
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