(Yesterday, 11:33 AM)Ampersnd Wrote: I'm waking up to the idea that I'm viewing other people - even people on the street whom I will never meet or see again - as a prison guard for my mental and emotional hangups.
This is very well articulated, I resonate with it, thank you for writing this.
Recording daily videos of myself talking to a camera is very helpful, especially the rewatch.
It's occurring to me that I talk with a facts-first, surface-level emotional tone.
A good friend once said that I talk like ChatGPT, which is pretty funny but also true in certain respects.
Watching other people's videos has me clueing in to the fact that it's just a camera pointing at them too, and to the fact that they're much more expressive and emotional than me.
Exploring that difference pulled up an emotional peanut-butter-in-throat sensation, which I've since processed. Not sure if that will help loosen my on-camera disposition.
